the re-excision surgery went VERY well this morning! the whole thing was even easier than i thought it would be! the worst part was having to get up at 4:15 in the morning to get there, and not being allowed to have coffee pre-surgery like everyone else. but surgery was over by 8:15, and by 9 or so, i was enjoying a double mocha with my fam. :)
i didn't need general anesthesia this time, which made all the difference. i was conscious-but-very-relaxed-and-pain-free in the OR during the half hour surgery. a side effect of the sedation is memory loss of the OR time, so i only vaguely remember...bizarrely enough, it was kind of a happy time. K made me laugh a lot as usual, and the OR "team" was comprised of her favorite people, so they were all happy together, too. and K had sarah mclachlan playing, not even knowing sarah's my favorite, so that was happy, too! there was a drape over part of me so that i couldn't SEE K cutting my breast...and i couldn't feel any pain, but i did feel a bit of pressure and movement and it was okay. and i have vague memories of us talking about all kinds of HAPPY things, like cake, ice cream, reeces peanut butter cups, mocha joes, coffee, and other stuff i can't remember. maybe i'm making that up?!? i swear that's what my brain THINKS we talked about...ha! it's like waking up from a dream in the morning and remembering bits and pieces. and i remember feeling happy that my scar was beautiful?! what the...?? dunno where that came from. :) but the whole thing was totally a PIECE OF CAKE!
and i wasn't even a drugged-up zombie at the end of it, like i had feared! i was pretty coherent, and soon impatient to get out of the bed in post-op, and once i showed a nurse that i could safely walk up and down the hall a little, she took my IV out and let me get dressed. she insisted i still had to ride in the wheelchair to leave the hospital, even though i felt fine...so, whatever, i wore my ridiculously crazy pink hat and let my mom take me for a ride in the wheelchair. we went to au bon pain and john bought me a lovely mocha and a salad and it was nice. :) i was glad to have andee with me today, too. i felt so loved and cared for all around.
now it's 4 pm and technically i should be napping, considering i A) HAD SURGERY and B) HAD SURGERY ON ONLY 4 HOURS OF SLEEP, but for some reason my internet addiction is trumping my fatigue right now... haha.